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so yeah its been awile since i posted here. im actualy really upset with round lake beach's fire department. it was 3:04 in the morning when i called #911 about a transformer fire that looked like it had been burning for at least an hour. and it took them 11 minutes to get there......DA FUCK! the station was like 2-3.5 minutes down the street (with traffic) and there was was no traffic at all so it should have taken less then even that. i understand it takes about 1-2 minutes to put those suits on and another minute and a half situated but even then 11 minutes is to long. in other news near the beginning of the year my elderscrolls IV: oblivion and elderscrolls V: skyrim where stolen so im uber pissed-off about that still, i mean ive put over 100 hours into both games(100 hours each mind you) . im attempting to get my license soon. im actually working on a few fanfics at the moment as well as my book(more so on the fanfics though. damn my inability to focus on one thing for more then a few days). my book is not coming along as smoothly as i would like and im only really righting it sporadicly(at best). and i have about 100 or more ideas for fanfics written with fully thought out OC's and divergences from the canon storyline, as well as 30 or more crossover fics. but many of the fics are self-insert fics so im not sure how well they will be received.
I'm back
so I've apparently been away for a few years now....so much has happened and i have no idea where to start.
guess i'll start from the beginning, that's usually a good place to begin(punny). I wanted to start fresh and new after getting my new job so i ditched my yahoo account and got a google one. started cutting the people that were just using me out of my life and finding new friends that actually liked me and that i actually had things in common with.
took up paganism and have felt so much better about my self and my life since then. started seeing someone, we met at said new job. she was in a really bad relationship(he was emotionally/v
the hurt
i never really liked v-day, well maybe thats an understatement i hate it and i doubt ill ever like it. being along is suposed to keep one from the soul cutting, heart rending hurt that comes from letting someone in and haveing them walk away like it never meant anything to them. iv come to realise that i purposely avoid interactions that would lead to caring for someone in that manner, almost to the point that i seem cold to people and i feel cold on the inside. these wounds dont seem to want to heal. but i supose thats my problem. the only reason their so deep and so wide, is because i love with my whole being, without reservation. its hard
just some thoughts
standin here watchin the world fly by at a mile a second wonderin how anyone can keep up and thinkin its not worth it. walkin around just seein people fly by thinkin (why, why try to keep up? its better to fly free.) ridein down the street the other day i saw a boy just sittin and listenin to music. just sitin and starein when he asked "why". "why do they fly by? their like the wind. here one second and gone the next." i was chillin just listenin to my mp3 thinkin, (what if it all just stoped? i bet theyed all fall flat.) as i sit here thinkin i wonder [how'd we get here? to a time where no has time for fun. no time to see the real beauty of
about my book
OK so i need a little help picking some names for the creatures that im putting in my book i don't just want the over used kinds like vampires and were wolves and pixies and the like i need some new thing so if anyone has ideas for new kinds of creatures or something message me and let me know. oh and im gonna post a preview of the first chapter in maybe 3 weeks. its still not done since i don't have it written in a notebook. its currently sitting on my dads computer and i only get to work on it when i watch my little sis which is only on Thursdays and sometimes Fridays. so don't hold your breath. well let me know please and thank you!! (^_^)
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Bro - keep yourself fixated on that book in the back of your mind - don't let it eat at you tho - take it as it comes. It's been about 3 months since I even considered picking up my pen. I want the ideas to flow, not sit and see a blank fortress, you know? All my love and luck :") - Sis
ps) that "add drawing" section is def. interesting lol
ps) that "add drawing" section is def. interesting lol